Give up.
It takes so much energy and mental fortitude just to keep the focus, trying things, considering possibilities and outcomes, anticipating responses, unpredictable outcomes and just plain headaches. Where should I draw the line? Perhaps, I shouldn't have even started. Can't help thinking I've just been ****ing wasting my time on the matter. My time is way more valuable than what it is being taken for.
The only problem is I wouldn't know where to focus all that saved energy if I were to stop. I'm going to have to make November an awesome month about ME. I earned the right to be a *little* selfish, haven't I?
On another note, work has been great, as always. I can only hope life outside of work ever gets as rewarding. Yes, life's a bitch. I understand that in the context of the issues plaguing our world, my rant is inconsequential and nothing more than exactly what it is; a rant. However, I won't delude myself into thinking I can do much to change the world alone, but I wouldn't deny I acknowledge there are things I can contribute. I just have the right to worry about my self... and I choose this short moment to say: For now, to hell with the rest of the world.
P/S: I'm going to look back at this post someday and laugh about it or even curse my immaturity, but it is my choice to make and I will be better learned when that time comes.
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