For someone who spends a major bulk of his professional hours developing people and instilling a sense of optimism and constructive reflection, I sure do seem to have trouble applying it upon myself personally.
I wonder why I have this distinct and pronounced duality. Where it involved my professional life, I feel more vibrant and daring... doing and saying what it takes to get the job done and the right people empowered to get it done. I rarely doubt my capabilities, and my instinct have always proven to be reliable and accurate. I can talk to anyone and everyone, and I can keep things in control should things seem to head awry.
But then there's the personal side of things, and it's a whole different ball game. I used to apply methods from my professional personality to how I dealt with things in my personal life... it hasn't always proven a wise thing, but that was more a mistake in when I applied them (or shouldn't have) more than anything else. I have insecurities in areas most people wouldn't think I do... and I feel the burden of a shadow that may be blown out of proportion purely from these insecurities.
Strangely... I can't quite say how much of both personalities have changed and been affected by the other in recent years. I can't even say which is representative of the true me.
Does that make me normal?
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